I don’t like labels. I don’t even like labelling myself
vegan. Why? Because people are so quick to judge and I’m not even going to sit
back and pretend that I don’t judge. I do. We all do subconsciously. Maybe it’s
something we haven’t even realised we are doing, I know I never realised until
now really. Until I got to this point where I am now, hiding behind ‘whyohyou’
through this blog and Instagram and the mere thought of my friends or family
seeing this side of me scares the crap out of me. Why? Because this is the real
me, a new me, I’m not the same person that I was two years ago in high school, I’ve
gone out into the world, I’ve gone through different experiences and I’ve
gained new knowledge that has transformed me and now.. I struggle to connect
with the same people that I use to and this scares me, because truthfully I
feel as though my mind has developed further than my heart has and right now I’m
not all connected, I’m still adapting to this new me myself. I’m terrified about
what people are going say and I’m more terrified of losing everyone around me.
I’m not perfect, this isn’t about a journey that I’ve been
on and that I have conquered and I can share all of my knowledge and
experiences that I gained, no, this is about a journey that I’m travelling on,
it’s never ending, a journey of life, forever I will be gaining new knowledge
and experiencing new things that are going to influence me and who I am and
forever we will all be evolving and transforming.
I still hold onto fear, a lot, but I wish to notice what I’m
fearful of and try and take on those things as much as I can. I wish to gain
the strength to not hide behind ‘whyoweyou’ and, let EVERYONE know ‘me’, the ‘me’
that I am in this present moment.
We shouldn’t be so quick to judge, you never truly know
anyone, hey, I don’t believe anyone even truly knows themselves. We can only try and be more conscious of our
judgements and not let them interfere with our perception. And as for fear,
there is no avoiding judgement but remember that the only judgement that truly
matter is the judgement you have on yourself.
Lil x
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